The Saga Continues!

So, I'm still pregnant. Yup, it sounds crazy, but I still sometimes get worried. Silly cramping. Apparently it's normal, but try telling that to a freaked out first time mom... yeah, just try. :) The stomach stuff has been getting worse, so that's been fun. You'd think that with going off of my diet, since I can't stomach anything on it, I would gain wait, or at least stop losing it. Well, yeah, I eat a little worse, but I also eat way less. So, I'm still losing weight I think. Ahhh! The first time in my life I can lose weight fine is the one time I don't want to lose weight. I hope I have enough fat stored that it's not hurting the baby. Lots of women throw up through the first few months, so it's probably not uncommon for people to lose weight. Right? On the up side, this is the first time ever that I've lost weight and the ladies don't shrink, in fact they're growing. Could it get any better? Nope.

Poor Joshua. For each meal I have like 1 thing that I could possibly eat that wouldn't make me sick. Yesterday it was ham and cheese on a small, cheapy bagel. So, since that's all I could eat, I ate two. Poor Joshua only got one. Then last night, I wanted Papa Murphy's Veggie Delite pizza, and I ate his last piece. If I get hungry, my stomach feels awful. So, the poor guy has to eat all the stuff that makes me feel sick. Plus, not eating what we have at home is a stretch for him, but I just can't do it. I've tried, it's not pleasant. But, I was reading another girl's blog and she's doing the same thing, so I'm not crazy. I'm hoping this will pass soon... I have a ton of cut veggies in our fridge that I can't eat. If I even think about onions, I start feeling sick, which is weird because I love them. I can smell them every time I'm in the kitchen. I always feel like I just ate tons of onions. Do you know how sick that is? I do. But, I seriously am lucky that I haven't thrown up, I'm just picky. I'm very blessed to have a husband who is trying to understand. :) And I'm blessed because these things mean that God is growing a miracle inside of me, how cool!

This Sunday, we're hopefully going to tell my parents. We're super excited. We rigged the game, Apples to Apples, in order to tell them. I love it! I have no idea how they'll react, but I hope they're excited. I guess I'll find out sooner or later. :)

Since this wasn't the timing we were thinking of, but the timing that God ordained, I've had to change some stuff for school. It's been so amazing how God is working everything out, like it's so amazing, that's all I can say! I went and talked to the dean, and he was super gracious and is really working with me. I jumped into Pathology a week after it started so that I could get it done now. Then I'll hopefully be able to student teach the PA's this summer, so I'm not the awkward huge pregnant lady leaning over dead bodies, yuck. Then, I'll take surgery at the beginning of next semester, and then take Clinical Imaging somewhere in there. Isn't that amazing. I totally will have almost nothing going on when the baby(ies) are/is born. :)

The ONLY problem is that I am now SUPER behind in Pathology. Which wouldn't be such a big deal if I wasn't also behind in Physiology. Those things coupled probably wouldn't be too terrible if I wasn't SUPER exhausted and sickly all the time. PLUS, I have to get the website up soon, the deadline is today, AHHHH!!! And, on top of that we're having Aaron and Dionne over on Saturday, so I have to completely clean the house. AND, on top of that, we're officially able to receive a call at any time for fostering. So, if that comes in, I may be sunk. I know that God's time is perfect, but I'm stretching a bit. Luckily, I don't eat anything I'd have to cook... So, that's been saving us time. I'm in that mode though, where I'm SO behind that I just feel like I can't do it. I'm frozen in fear. So, I'm trying to make myself get the routine easy stuff done and just keep moving. I did my devotions this morning, then piano. I felt guilty doing them, because I have so much to do. Which is what usually happens, so I don't get anything done. But, I just have to do everything, so might as well start with the more manageable things. I've been wanting to blog for some time, but haven't had the time. Well, now I'm waiting for Joshua to head over to the school, so that gives me time to do this. Although, I didn't realize quite how much time. Oh well.

Giving in!

Okay, so officially today I am giving in. Giving in to what, you ask. Pregnancy. I have been trying to eat well, but it's too much for me. I feel full all the time and sicky. I just don't want to eat, but I've not only ate, but ate all I've had to. Well, onions make me sick, potatoes make me sick, everything makes me sick. I never throw up, but I just feel yucky. So today, I've decided to take it easy on myself. Tonight I ate some white french bread and drank apple juice for supper. And you know what? It was wonderful. I still don't feel great stomach-wise, but I feel oh so much better than I usually would. So, that was nice. I also took a nap today. I know everyone says that they get exhausted during the first trimester, but somehow I still felt guilty taking a nap. Today, it overcame me and today, I gave in. That also was wonderful. So, I'm officially pregnant and officially letting my body rest as it's doing all of this work. Don't get me wrong, I love being pregnant, it's so great. I'm hopeful that the sick feeling means the babies are doing okay. The only thing that is hard for me is the cramping. I've been cramping mildly on and off since the beginning. It just gets me worried. I'm always afraid it means I'm losing the babies. But, I've looked it up and it says that cramping is normal, and I've had no spotting, but still I'm waiting to see. I'll be really excited when we have our appointment if we can hear a heart beat. I think that will make it not only more real, but put me more at ease. I trust that God made these babies and he can carry them safely or take them. I'm so excited to get to tell my parents soon! :) And then Joshua's parents soon after that! I wish we lived closer. :)