Patience

We're finally here.  The end of the road.  On Tuesday I will be 40 weeks.  This pregnancy started off going quickly.  Sometimes I even sort of forgot I was pregnant.  Not now.  Nope.  I am so completely and utterly pregnant.  I'm pretty sure I'm twice as wide now.  Sometimes it's hard to remember what a blessing it is.  I'm definitely all about the blessing of holding my little one.  I know that is a blessing.  I know the life inside me is nothing short of a gift from God.  But, oh man, the overly pregnant part of me is a whiner.  The last few days I've found myself short on patience and trust in God.

Thankfully there are people out there that have been down this road before and are not as grumpy as me.  I found a blog called Passionate Homemaking and she shared some Bible verses for preparing your heart for the new little one coming.  I was really convicted by a lot of them.  Especially: 

"So do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord.  Remember the great reward it brings you!  Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God's will.  Then you will receive all that He has promised."  Hebrews 10: 35-36

This is totally where I'm at.  I was starting to throw away my trust in the Lord.  Questions like, "doesn't he love me?", "does he have a plan for this?", "is he good?" all flooded my brain.  Until yesterday they overtook me, consumed me.  Praise the Lord for godly women who focus on scripture.  This baby is a gift from the Lord and He will bring it in HIS timing.  I am so thankful that he is teaching me patient endurance.  It's hard, because I've heard of women surrendering and realizing this and then they go into labor that night.  I didn't, but then I would have missed out on this peace that comes from the Lord and his continually giving me patience.  

Do not get me wrong this doesn't mean that I don't pray for this little one to come as soon as possible.  Because I do. But I also am now more able to just enjoy the life God has for me right now and be excited for when he chooses to add to it. 

"You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is set on you; because he trusts in you." Isaiah 26:3

While I'm uncomfortable right now, I pray that God will continue to develop patience and trust in me.  I'm thankful for what he has done so far.  I'm thankful for the peace that only he can give. 

And I'm so excited for when I get to kiss this new little member of our family.
Some things are worth waiting for.

Kendall

Christmas Highlights

We really enjoyed Christmas this year.  We didn't do much, but that was perfect for us.

Judah helped us get in the Christmas spirit.

He put on his Christmas Shoes...

 On Christmas Eve we spent time with family, and tried to get a picture with all 6 grandkids.  Yes, they're all boys.  It would be pretty radical for this family if this baby is a girl...

Grandma and Grandpa got all the kids matching jackets.  It was actually nice enough to play outside.

I love the age Judah is at.  It was so fun for Christmas.  He would very very very very slowly open each gift (mostly from the grandparents :) and look up at us with a huge smile.

 Judah loves his vacuum.  Loves it.

Then on Christmas day we went over to great grandma and grandpa's.  Judah loves playing with all the cousins

 Love the way Judah is sliding in this, cracks me up.

 Playing with Grandma and Grandpa

And lest we forget Baby #2.  (Like you can forget something this big...)  Baby had a good Christmas, but may have eaten a few too many Christmas treats.  Naughty, naughty... :)

Hope you had a good Christmas!

Kendall